Brains can be jerks. Also, I judge myself.

Earlier today I was really down on something. A news topic had come out and I was kicking myself. I have something in the works that would be PERFECT to promote alongside the topic.

 

Only it’s not ready. I’ve been working on it slowly (SLOWWWWWLY) all year so far. But I presently work full time and that plus the amount of time my health requires means I have less than 1% of time per month I can dedicate to this project. Hustling to “just do more” isn’t possible for me. (I wrote a blog post about hustle being isolating years ago – I probably need to update it though to reflect my current health impacts.) 

 

I don’t judge others for what they can’t do because of their health. And yet I judge the shit out of myself. Today has shown that. I felt so disappointed in myself that my GIANT TWENTY-FIVE THOUSAND word project isn’t just magically ready. 

 

What a ridiculous thing to judge yourself on. That’s a lot of words and a lot of work, especially on top of living and all that fancy crap. 

 

I don’t know what the answer is here. How do you not judge yourself? I guess catching myself when I’m doing it is one step. Now I just wish I didn’t do it to begin with.