I’ve lost respect for community.
Recently a friend suggested a way to make a personal project into a community project. Their suggestion was valid and logical. It was my own suggestion that surprised me. I felt a large recoil at the thought.
This feeling of recoil has been swirling while I thought about things like the way social media discusses community.
But what part of community is putting me off? Is it the “enough” factor? Like when discussing what advocacy gets seen as “real”, is it that only acts I can’t perform get seen as real community work?
Maybe what I’m seeing is something about not being enough, or not good enough outcomes.
Or maybe it’s the hierarchy. Because even in the best meaning of places, power corrupts. And even though I know it happens, it feels like a betrayal each time.
