A Good Ole Brain Dump

I don’t like busy.


I do like space and fresh air.


I work too much/with too long of a commute/at the wrong days and times to get my freedom from busy and get the space and fresh air I need.


Being inside is the thing I hate most about working full time. And that when I do go out, it’s on the weekend when everyone else is out, which doesn’t recharge me, but makes me more tired. 


I hate that my local council is doing some pop up food truck thing at beachfront locations to … I don’t know, develop … something? If you need a commercial incentive to visit nature then you’re doing nature wrong. 


My creative hobbies are selfish. I don’t want to write for others. I don’t want to photograph for others. Then I’d have to pay attention to grammar (boorrring) and editing photos (snooze fest). 


Being restless and needing downtime often coincide for me and it’s the most frustrating feeling. 


And when I’m in a mood like that, I often don’t choose, then make myself and everyone around me more miserable because I trap myself in indecisiveness. 


I am grateful for finding my new car. Already it is changing our lives. When Ben has bad pain days he can still leave the house because it’s not as painful to get into the car and it’s a much smoother drive so the normal bumps and movements of driving that cause pain are far lessened.


The timing and price of the car are things I think I will be grateful for in the long run too. 


I keep wondering why I’ve got six bucks in my bank account. In my head, I haven’t spent much this fortnight. Haven’t been anywhere or done anything. Of course what I am forgetting multiple times a day is that I spent over $100 at the chemist when I had the flu on prescription and non prescription items to help me manage the severity of my symptoms.


Also here’s a photo I took on Saturday nights of the fireworks at my local show.




What have you been up to? Anything above you relate to?


16 Replies to “A Good Ole Brain Dump”

  1. I’ve been busy this month, but also fitting in plenty of recharging. I got sick AGAIN, so I’ve started paying more attention to what I’m eating to get more greens. Even grabbed a powdered greens thing to bump things up a bit. I’m so over coughing. I know you get that.

    1. Vanessa Smith says: Reply

      Gah, no to sickness! Damn flu season. My cough was awful until I was given some super strength cough stuff. Those was some good drugs haha.

  2. I’m with you re the reasons for being in nature – you shouldn’t need a commercial reason…although I don’t mind a food truck. Here’s to a healthy, chemist free July.

    1. Vanessa Smith says: Reply

      I’m a bit over the hipster milk crate ‘vibe’ in public.

  3. Those chemist visits sure add up. My friend is just back from the US, though, where she paid more than $70 USD for a ventolin puffer that nomals costs $10 AUD. Amazing, hey?

    1. Vanessa Smith says: Reply

      I don’t know how anyone affords anything medical in the US. The $100 I spent included two puffers.

  4. I’ve been busy this month. Keeping things ticking over, nothing exciting.

    I am with you on the selfish pastimes thing. I write for the fun of it and proofreading sucks bigtime.

    SSG xxx

  5. I wish I enjoyed nature more but I’m very much an indoors person. Those food trucks seem to be everywhere now. Hope you feel better soon.

    1. Vanessa Smith says: Reply

      I’m outdoors if there are few people around 🙂

  6. I agree about not needing a reason to visit nature. I wish winter would just go away though! I HATE the cold! Still going to the beach when it’s clear but hate that I can’t get in the water for a swim. Hope you get time to recharge!

    1. Vanessa Smith says: Reply

      I don’t mind winter, purely for the break from the humidity.

  7. Oh god that sounds like my bank account!

    1. Vanessa Smith says: Reply

      I swear groceries are costing more somehow and I don’t know how as we’re buying less and I haven’t noticed any particular item go up in price.

  8. I like a mix of busy and nothing much. Too much of either is not good for my mental health.
    I like the car helping you both and especially Ben comfort-wise.

    ONE day, my wish for you, is to have the professional life you need to grow and be challenged along with some time for those fun things you also enjoy.

    Thank you for linking up for #lifethisweek. Next week’s optional prompt is “My Home Country” 28/52. Denyse x

    1. Vanessa Smith says: Reply

      I think for me I need to get better at using the downtime. I feel the need to fill it and that defeats the point of it!

  9. I’m so so so so busy!!! Parenting 4 girls… working full time…. resigning said job…. taking a weeks holiday…. getting a new job…. restarting the blog….. busy busy times!!!

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