Funky Frustration Town

Beach study

Last week I had one of those weeks. So many little things were going wrong, so much was harder than it needed to be and none of it was in my control. So what do you do?

 

All the calm, perfect living type of people would say that there is nothing I can do.

 

Funky Frustration Town

 

But the problem I have with that is despite the fact that there is nothing I can do, I know for a fact I will be impacted by these issues in the future. So I’m left with this unempowering sense of frustration and I don’t know what to do with it. I can’t fix it, I can’t skip  it, I can literally do nothing but wait for it to impact me further down the line.

 

Look, in the end it took me most of Sunday to catch up. I’m there. Ish. It wasn’t great. But I’ve now caught up on the prats I could only attack as best I could.

 

It’s a struggle. I don’t like busy. But I do accept that studying a Grad Cert this year while working full time makes me busy. And when things at home, uni or work go wrong (or like last week, all three) then it does throw off this delicate line I am walking.

 

I don’t like working with other people around me. It’s why I will never be the world’s best employee. It’s also why I had to go out and study somewhere that wasn’t home to catch up.

 

Beach study

 

Also file that photo under “why I will always live by the beach” and “why I put up with a lousy commute” – aka because the lifestyle is worth it.

 

I don’t want to always be looking forward to this or that being over. Because that does deny us parts of life experience. But at the same time, when you can’t enjoy parts of life experience, is it actually wrong to look forward to things being over?

 

I don’t know the answers. For now I’m doing what I can do, which is mildly keeping my head above water for the next two months.

 

How do you deal with frustration and things outside of your control?

 

5 Replies to “Funky Frustration Town”

  1. Sorry things are so frustrating for you lately, Ness. On the plus side, at least you have your crack sauce and your sense of humour to get you through it. And the beach. I have certainly been desperate for things to be over in the last year. It hasnt been great. Where can I get that sauce?

  2. I had a week like that a few months ago and it made me feel so powerless, I hated it. I felt like everywhere I turned there was a wall stopping me from moving forward. I dealt with it by locking myself in my house most of the week and rage venting with friends.

  3. Well, I don’t quite deal with it, I just wait for it to pass. I am always hopeful although I am not a very optimistic person. It doesn’t make sense, lol, don’t mind me. 😛

  4. I sincerely hope the coming week is kinder to you Ness x

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