Monday night I went to a new late night GP clinic & had that small intake by the nurse. Weight, height, BP, heart rate etc. The usual.
I think the scales tipped at 113kg.
I don’t always know I’m fat. I think that sounds stupid to write. But it’s true. I think it’s because the weight has been a long, slow gain, as opposed to…well as opposed to I don’t know what. I’m not a doctor. It’s just logical to assume that there’s something out there that would cause people to put on weight quickly.
I don’t own scales, so that’s probably why I didn’t know what I weighed.
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I debated what to blog about this. Weight is such a touchy topic. I don’t equate it with being ugly. I don’t equate it with being stupid. And yes, I have heard overweight being equated with being stupid.
If you say online that you need to lose weight, everyone seems to presume you have low self confidence and tells you that you’re beautiful as you are. Yes, I know. I don’t have low self confidence. I think too much, but that’s another topic entirely.
I don’t like being overweight. I do need to lose weight. I hate weight loss/diet plans, smoothies and meal replacements. I like reality, not quick fixes.
Basically, I think I need to find an activity that I actually enjoy doing, that is easy to fit in around a full time job, blogging and a long commute. Yeah, I have a lot on my plate. But they are real factors in my life.
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And I kind of don’t feel like I shouldn’t ask for advice, because I usually end up feeling resentful when people offer me basic advice like “move” or “don’t blog” …geez, you don’t think I’ve thought of that? I know, I’m not really being friendly here. But these factors that I have that others don’t; where I live and my after work activities, are just non-negotiable in my life. I have to have them. My life looks unimaginably bland without them. They are part of the lifestyle I am choosing because they make me happy. Every up side has a downside. I’m looking for ideas that work with me, not against me.
I’m still a member of a gym that I haven’t been to in a year. I guess my first step would be to try going back there and seeing how I go. I’m not into classes, and most aren’t on at times I can get there anyway. I used to like it when I was there, I just found it hard to go there.
What exercise do you do? What’s fun and easy to keep doing?