There are plenty of moments in life where you get stabbed, but also feel the knife twist inside you. Hopefully they’re all metaphorical and not real, because while the metaphorical sucks, I assume the real also really fucking hurts. I’m still trying to unpack layers of mental crap from my last job. I think […]
Health
Ticking a task box
Ticking a task box I recently completed a task I had been putting off all year so far. I think time turning to May shamed me a bit internally and while shame isn’t exactly an ideal motivator … that’s what did it this time. The task was simple, it was just fixing up […]
When Acute Crushes You
I have no idea where 2022 has gone. A few days ago I was shocked it’s May already and somehow June is racing toward me. In a household of two chronic people there’s always give and take. But we tag team between us and between whatever our fluctuating capacities are. Until acute things […]
April Creative Contemplations
Project updates: My Fictional Life With Kids: Need to fix up hosting. It’s annoying. Totally Normal Dollhouse: Zero progress since I caught covid. Boo hiss to the plague. This month I was: Reading: All the Cassie Coburn novels. Gaming: Got obsessively into high scores on Mini Metro+ …letting it run for hours to get […]
Switching My Brain Off
Four days. I have four straight days off from my day job, thanks to public holidays. I tell you what, I don’t much like Christianity but I’ll take the public holidays they give me. But already my brain is swapping to “what can I get done?” mode. Why? Why do we do this to […]
March Creative Contemplations
Feeling bundles of frustration and pain flares. Lots of “ugh, life: stuff to deal with. Pain flares, after effects of flood stress even though we didn’t flood. Wondering if I’ll ever have enough energy to juggle a day job and my creative projects and my business projects. Oh yeah, then, after two very successful years […]
February Creative Contemplations
I feel like I did a lot in January (snarky gratitude journal, dollhouse project) and nothing in February. But I started a new day job and did that “be kind to yourself” stuff that was all about NOT doing things while I went through change. Ugh. Like, being kind to yourself is good but it’s […]
Waiting For Autopilot
That’s how I feel right now. I’m waiting for autopilot. I’m 2.5 weeks into a new job. I want to speed past this part. It sounds ungrateful. So many people don’t have job and yet I found one before my previous job ended. And now I want to be past the newbie stage. […]
Creativity In Hard Times
Creativity In Hard Times No, I’m actually not referring to that global pandemic thing. I don’t wish to erase anyone’s experience (undoubtedly challenging experiences at that), but I want to talk about hard times at a smaller scale. I have chronic pain for mostly unidentified reasons. I know when and where I hurt myself, […]
Rehabilitation Theory Is Bullshit
From a personal Facebook post in 2019 when I had hurt my shoulder at work. Publishing because I think it’s the sort of thing that needs to be shared. I feel pooped from this long weekend. Got a weird amount of stuff done between not doing anything. But not as tired as I […]