Up until this year, I had primarily worked full time. Then in April, I started a part time contract. Since then it has varied, but more often than not, I don’t work five days per week. Recently worked picked up a little and I was flung back into five day weeks. And it’s hard to get back into that!
Last Friday I felt tired but kind of anxious, I’m not even sure if that’s the right word, but lets just go with it. I knew that if I went home and stayed home, I would fall asleep. And if I fall asleep early, I wake up UBER early. As Rachel said to me last week, I’m like a toddler!! Don’t send me to bed too early, or there will be hell to pay the next morning.
Of course, being this tired ends up as a catch-22 situation. Too tired to think of anything to do, but desperately needing something to do. In the end I went for a convenient fall back option – BBQ at the beach. Even defrosting some meat and packing up the BBQ bag felt like a bit much.
Once I got there, I was totally relaxed. No more anxiety. No more tiredness. Just getting to be outside was all I needed. Even cooking in giant wind gusts was all ok with me.
I feel like it shouldn’t have, but it totally amazed me. From just wanting to crawl up onto the couch and hope I stay awake until “bedtime” to cooking, walking, talking and generally feeling GOOD.
I looked back on my week. I had bought a ton of salad ingredients before work on Monday so that I had easy to make, healthy wraps for lunch every day. Success. They looked and tasted great. But also a fail. Because they were giant, yummy wraps, I stayed in the kitchen at work for lunch and didn’t go outside. They were kind of hard to eat without falling everywhere.
Basically, last week I improved my physical health at the expense of my mental health. I didn’t know how much my normal habit of wandering aimlessly outside at lunchtime helped me.
This work-life-health balance thing is hard to get right!
How do you manage getting outside enough? Or eating vs walking vs anything else?