As you can see from all the times (here, here, here & here) that I’ve blogged about uni and studying, I love to learn and therefore I have a really hard time accepting that study hasn’t worked for me. I loved going to uni. Sure, it was stressful at times, but I love learning and sitting in a classroom debating with people. I miss the brain sweat.
(Re)Considering My Education
Ever since I finished uni in early 2009, I’ve been looking for more study to do. I tried a Masters degree in Writing but it was boring – I completed two subjects, barely studied and got distinctions on my assignments.
I tried studying a Masters in Communications but the content was archaic and whoever wrote the lectures had a clear disdain for any kind of digital communications. Not acceptable.
I’ve tried those Writing and communications degrees more than once. I really shouldn’t have wasted my time and money.
I’ve looked into so many courses. I keep looking into courses. I’m a freaking expert on what Australian universities offer.
I’ve looked at doing a PhD, because that’s what you’re “supposed” to do in my area. You do undergrad, honours, PhD. You teach. You consult. I don’t really want to go down that path (for a long list of reasons) but I’m wondering if my degree is the problem.
I never knew until 2015 how unique an undergraduate anthropology degree is. You’re basically taught at a very different level and in a very different style to prety much any other undergraduate degree there is. It’s not textbook learning at all.
I think that’s why I’ve struggled to find a coursework masters (or any postgrad) that suits me. It all feels like taking a step back. A big step back. It also helps to explain the lack of postgrad non research options for anthropology.
But do I want to do a PhD?
After my last failed attempt at postgrad study I told myself the only way I would go back to study is if I was doing a PhD. It seems to be the only logical way to study that will suit me.
Can I teach myself things? Well, yes. I can. But it’s not the same type of learning experience to Google things, read, analyse, apply and learn on my own. It’s not as fun, it’s not as motivating and it’s not as interactive as a classroom with students and subject matter experts in it.
But a PhD is a HUGE commitment. I don’t know if I could consistently fit it into my life. It’s a pretty all-consuming thing to do.
I don’t know if I would do it part time while working, or if I need to be able to be supporting my house through non day-job, flexible income before I could consider a PhD. While academics have told me I can likely get entry without having done honours (based on years of research work experience), it means I can’t compete for scholarships. But also, that sort of doesn’t matter as they’re not amounts of money you can live on anyway. And they’re certainly not the amount of money two people and a dog can live on.
I guess where I’m at is covered a bit by this article and Facebook post I made last week. The current system of “doing” your life doesn’t fit my life. I need to find one that works for me. But I need to do that while surviving within the system for now.
I keep thinking I need a VA. Someone who can do tasks while I’m at work to help me to grow the things I need while I work. But a good VA is hard to come by and I don’t know how to afford one. Or if I could train my husband to be one…
And I really need to stop looking at this graduate certificate in scriptwriting… because I am so very tempted to enrol. Despite what it says, the uni confirmed that it is 100% external.
Have you done further study? How did you make the decision?